Hi Mom,

I just was talking with dad and thought that I had better talk with you. I miss you both so much. I truly regret not being there when you both needed me the most. You were always there for me, especially when it was with Caity. I cannot say thank you enough for what you and dad did. Yes I know you did what a grandparent would do, but after I had treated the family the way I did, I was surprised. Yes mom, I do now realize how badly I hurt you all. I am so sorry that I did. Mom you wouldn't understand all the stuff that I carry around in my head from all of that. I can't even begin to explain. Please just know that I am doing better, and that your granddaughter is so simply freaking awesome! But you know, because your watching over all of us. Your friend Mary Alice has written on here, and I wish I knew how to get ahold of her. Anyways mom, I love you, I do miss you, and I am forever grateful for what you did for our family.

It's been two years ago today, that you went to be with the Lord, and dance on beautiful streets of gold!! It sure doesn't seem possible, but I guess time on earth flies by, and the years get shorter, the older you get. My mother used to say that, and I thought she was being silly, but I understand now, what she meant. lol.. I know your rose garden that God gave you is as beautifulal you are, my sweet Rosey, and that you are taking such good care of it, as you did your beautiful roses here on earth. Although we never met in person, I know God joined us as Pogo buddies and friends for a reason, and that when we meet in Heaven one day, we will be like real sisters, as we referred to each other, so often. We'll have fun remembering all those games of scrabble and qwerty we played all those years...lol I really miss those pogo times we had together, and there has been no one to take your place. Now I just play with the tin man, and he's not the least bit sociable... but ...lol I wouldn't I beat him, 9 out of 10 times.. which I sure didn't, youtrade those games for anything though...win or lose...lol

I know your family is still missing you terribly, but they have beautiful and fond memories of the love you gave them, and the treasured things you did as a family... and like any other family, I'm sure they have a few regretable memories as well.. but that's okay..... that's why we are human. We make mistakes, and then we learn from them, ask forgiveness from those we hurt, and from our Heavenly Father, and also ourselves, and then move on.

I've been trying to get intouch with Rosey..(my name for her) for a long time... and the phone number I have, had been dsconnected. I've missed seeing her in Pogo, where we met, and played zillions of games of Scrabble, and Qwerty throughout the past years, since 2003. We talked and e-mailed often, and even though we never met in person, we loved each other as thugh we had known each other all our lives. I feel sad that I was out of touch with her when she was so sick and went on to be with the Lord. What kind of a friend doesn't know what's going on in their special friends lives?

I have no excuse, except for all that's going on in my own life, and with my own, large family, which is usually something dramatic and unusual. Being 68 years old and having custody of a very active 3 year old keeps me hopping full time, as well. I've raised Tyler since birth, and he is my heart... but boy..he's a real pistol!!

That should be no excuse for not knowing about Rosey though..and I'm so sorry for your loss, and for the emptiness, I know you all feel. I do know that she loved the Lord, and from talking and sharing with her, over the 6 plus years we were friends.. I know she is in a much better place than we are, and that she and Jesus are enjoying the most beautiful roses ever..with her being right in the middle of them all. She was the most beautiful Rose I ever saw, with a warm, loving and giving spirit, and I look forward to joining her in the most beautiful Rose Garden in Heaven, one day.

I don't know if any of her family will see this or not, but if you do, please know how sorry I am, how much Rosey meant to me, and how special she was. I know you all have beautiful and loving memories of her and that you miss her terribly. Cling to those special memories, and know she suffers no more, and is dancing on streets of gold, and awaits the day she can be united with you all, again. if you only believe and receive eternal life through the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, you can be assured of that reunion, one day. I pray each of you have made that decision and choice for your eternal life, as it's the best decision you'll ever make, eternity with Jesus, your mom, and other loved ones.

I'll never forget that date, Jan. 24 th., as Rosey went to be with the Lord on my good friend, Patty's birthday. (We've been friends since 1955,when we were in the 6th. grade.) I will always remember Rosey, but especially on that day, as we celebrate Patty's birthday, I'll light a candle in rememberance of my special, beautiful, and loving friend, Rosey!!!

There is not a day that I do NOT think of you! I just wish that we would have had a little bit more time together. I will always love you Mom, even though I was not the best daughter in the world. Since you have left us, I have gone through a lot of changing.

Love you Mom,

Jeanine

Happy Mothers Day Mom. I can remember when we started buying you rose bushes for your rose garden on Mother's Day. It was always a thrill to see those rose bushes bloom every year, and to add new ones, in a variety of colors, to your rose garden. Now you have a special rose garden with a window up in Heaven. We miss you.